Reality. Apparently.

Once upon a time there was a Perspective. It saw everything and anything through a lens of experience of its host, a process called interpretation. The experience was not the host but this was what the Perspective made the host believe. The Perspective made the host take everything it had interpreted for a fact.

Everything around and within us is subject to interpretation, especially historic ‘facts’ which we are no longer able to validate but rely on our own or collective interpretations continuously layered on one another. Ancient texts are no exception, quite the opposite – they are the perfect material. There are as many interpretations of scriptures as there are spiritual communities, or spiritual zealots. To human detriment some interpretations became religions which have terrorised the truth seekers and states for centuries. (According to Pew Research flags of 64 out of 196 countries bear religious symbolism, Britain included. Such a flag sends a devastating/crucifying message to the collective subconscious continually imprinting the masses. Manifestation of this programming can be seen in the current collective conflicts. Whether the Union Jack represents modern society is up for discussion.)

Somewhere between the doctrine and secularization are metaphysical investigators who bring a unique perspective to the table. Neville Goddard is one of them. I came across Goddard’s work last year and read few of his titles, with varying interest. I approached the material with scepticism, as found his parallels full of mental short cuts, simplifications and some of the conclusions far-fetched. (This might be due to the fact that Neville never wrote himself but his lectures were recorded, hence the impression of disjointed argument). However the depth of analysis in ‘Five Lessons’ was different which intrigued me and I kept coming back to re-read.

In the Introduction Goddard states “Throughout the centuries we have mistakenly taken personifications for persons, allegory for history, the vehicle that conveyed the instruction, and the gross first sense for the ultimate sense intended.” This sentence, although pertaining to his lecture which follows and scripture itself, almost describes the whole socio~logical trend. This seems to be exactly what is happening with the world at large – loss of meaning. If there had ever been any meaning recognised in the first place. But isn’t this the mark of modern times; to take the form/person/bling/approval for content/essence/gold/achievement?

On the second reading I discovered what it was that intrigued me originally.
Not only the material is insightful and accurate but it refers to human Imagination exactly as Einstein understood it and worked with-in it. Gave me giggles, that one.

Goddard is an acquired taste. Certainly not for those unfamiliar with the New Testament or afraid of knowledge. For those who question, play and dive deep this might be a treat. Enjoy.

Resources: Five Lessons

Further inspiration: Archaeology confronts the Bible, Etymology of the name Israel
Related posts: Ancient Scripts


I do my best to be very selective in the choice of news I read because every time I come across yet another display of Congress’ puppetry and Britain’s subservience, my blood pressure rises dramatically. Admittedly, I have been chipping away at my anti-Americanism, or anti-militarism to be precise, for some time now. Let me tell you this is the best spiritual practice of radical acceptance I could have treated myself to. Accepting stupidity. Not that long ago war was an art of strategy. Today, it is the least intelligent way of going about international relations, at least in the US fashion. So I educate myself on the Giant’s policies and look for clues which could convince me that what America is doing has at least a hint of logic and reason behind it. None to be seen. It is because the decisions do not originate in the Government. The strings are pulled by Federal Reserve.

So when I go within to explore what is it that actually infuriates me about the destructive, unsanctioned rampage that is going on, I find it is not the loss of individual lives. There are plenty of those lost in hunger, natural disasters, domestic violence, that comes with territory of living – Nature taking its course. But it is the destruction sent along the energetic lines of human psyche, damaging collective evolutionary chain which human spirit represents that sits in the root of my irritation. The conflicts, murder, rape, torture as well as less visible and tangible psychological, emotional abuse and rape of dignity in fact paralyse the nervous system (human body’s communication / connectivity pathways with the Universe) of 3 to 5 generations which follow the original occurrence. This entangles the collective subconscious and seeps into the land in question. How would I know?

My own ancestors experienced war on both sides of the family, some surviving the work camps – it took me nearly a decade to untangle the web of collective guilt, shame and unresolved trauma from my own essence. It is a peeling away of layers of pain that are not ours to begin with. It is a heavy, dramatic work, and it hurts. I am one of millions. All that because once upon a time Hitler decided to channel his strategic genius into destructive action. Today, war is an entertainment run by thick-skinned, thick-headed men led by greed.

” Do you recall the time, a little less than twenty-five years ago, when we took the trolley car to the Reichstag building, convinced that we could really help turn those fellows into honest democrats? How naïve we were, even as men forty years old! I can only laugh when I think about it. Neither of us realized how much more powerful is instinct compared to intelligence. We would do well to bear this in mind or the tragic errors of those days may be repeated.” Einstein to Born, 1944.

Are we any wiser? Have we understood or are oblivious to the fact the perpetration continues only in different fields and clad in more convoluted justifications. Sometimes it seems to me humanity is in regression. And if peacemakers have ever made any progress, war had always been two steps ahead.

Related posts:

Nature doesn’t Mind, 17 August 2014
Resources: The Ancestor Syndrome, Family Constellations


New Age brought us a lot of ‘letting go’. The past is the trendiest to let go of. Only impossible to do. So the world is full of people and countries in a constant escape from their past doomed to repeat it. However hard we try to let go it is never successful. Avoidance, denial, rejection and projection of our ‘past’ selves, deeds, thoughts and patterns (truly a continuous and now present aspects of us) will always leave us re-living the same stories, patterns and experiences even if in different setting or with a different person.History, individual and collective, can only be transformed. This always, in human race without exceptions, happens within. Yet the only portal which facilitates this process (human heart) has to be at least ajar.

It starts with recognising and honouring our decisions and deeds * for what they are, without blame, without judgement; the hurt we have experienced and inflicted, the mistakes, the betrayal (of self and others which is always a betrayal of self), lack of faith… without sinking into surrender little will shift at this stage. When we are silent and still enough we will then be given a chance to mourn, entering a deeper level of honour. If, at this stage we are patient and self-compassionate, we will soon float up to the surface aka to the other side of awareness. Then we enter yet even deeper into surrender – to accept and own all that we’ve been through (not the story itself, but its influence and imprint it had left in what we recognise as our soul). Some call it integration, some call it completion. I call it – the beginning.

Only at this stage can we start to shape our world according to our dreams (as opposed to fantasies), informed yet not controlled by our experiences. It is only then that our history can be used to navigate our evolution, without the danger of stifling us.

* Further inspiration:

Bert Hellinger, Acknowledging What Is  (individual responsibility)
Margaret Humphreys, Oranges and Sunshine (collective responsibility)

Related posts: Karma, 31 Aug 2014

Cellular Awareness

I was inspired to read one of Dr Lipton’s recent posts Mind Evolution, Global Evolution. In his post Dr Lipton re-affirms a notion I had introduced in Karma, about uniqueness of human construct, which allows us to transform our collective karma (aka history). Albeit derived from a different standpoint Dr Lipton’s findings correspond with my own insights regarding cellular awareness. Human body is the bridge between micro and macro-cosmos. Transformation starts with ‘feeling’ the body.

Why? Because the physical body is the expression of everything that had ‘made’ us up until now. Attitudes, physical, social, mental, emotional and astrological conditioning, environment and internal eco-system, to name but the few, are part of this make up.

Our personal and collective history is locked within our cells, out of our conscious view, as memories. We have to become present to our history (aware of the source or core of memories) if we want to create a different future. We have to become responsible for what appears as ‘our’ part in the collective, through bodily awareness. For what we feel (and don’t feel, the denied aspects) – manifests or expresses itself in the collective human experience on Earth. Creation goes forward as we pay attention to how past manifests within our lives and, through conscious choice, release it from the karmic cycle.

Majority of us are so sensitive about and identified with our history (individual and collective), we are unable to see we came to serve Evolution and ‘future’ species. Consciousness is timeless and will sometimes bring/offer us the ‘memory’ (image and/or feeling) from the collective which can be relevant to our current life experience but is almost always relevant to our Soul theme. This is our opportunity for transformation and change. When we are aware, our choices reflect that. When we are not aware, our actions will always stem from the place of ignorance, reaping more of the same.



Nature takes care of itself one way or the other. Species go extinct and new ones are created every year, these decisions take effect outside of human control and awareness. With that in mind, I have low regard for humans in their current state of affairs. Depth of their ignorance and arrogance keeps surprising me anew every day. Yet I cannot deny that, due to the way we are constructed, we can play a significant role in the evolution of our species (at this stage preservation is no longer a possibility). By, as mentioned in my previous post, addressing our karmic entanglements.

Karma is said to be or be similar to the law of cause and effect. And while some of us pay attention to create good karma, it still keeps us entangled. What’s more it is not always the causes we are aware of that reap the results in ‘our’ lives. These causes reach far beyond our existence. Yet we are the channels through which Universes and parallel realities can come to balance. Everything we do continues the entanglement. The moment we become aware of the motive we give our Spirit a chance for freedom

For it is not necessarily the action itself that contributes to the repetition of the karmic cycle but the sponsoring thought, intentions and emotion that underlie and fuel it. Karma is created by choices we do and don’t make. It is the manifestation of the Whole of us, the feelings and emotions we are aware of and those which are repressed, denied and still awaiting healing. It is the expression of or reaping both the Beauty of our Soul and Its shadow. When what is manifested (or expressed) disturbs us it is the moment to become mindful. It is the karmic pattern coming to the Light of our awareness to be understood and integrated. The ‘disturbance’ is the Soul asking for our Attention, a gateway through which It is freed of the particular pattern or cycle.

The collective karmic cycle has turned again and is visible in all the global conflicts. The world faces a unique chance for redemption. But it is currently run by ‘automats’, people who are not present or mindful of their own actions let alone their motives. It is now up to every one of us to remain congruent in everything we think, speak and do, to act from a place of the transcended Heart.

Past in Present

After years of exploring human psyche, spirit and nature it is still fascinating for me to observe how many of us have parts of ourSelves left in different spaces, different times. Locked in the past experience, relationship, feeling we repeat the patterns those experiences left in our energy field again and again, seemingly unable to see or move beyond the boundaries set by these patterns.

It is widely taught that to change our reality we need to look into our subconscious, correct our mental attitude, improve our intellectual discipline and it is true to a certain degree. True transformation of reality however comes from acknowledging what is pre-sent in our hearts, how it feels and where it belongs. For the soul is always searching for the circumstances that will let it become whole again and this is done when we become aware of the parts that are not present, that are locked in a different time/space dimension.

There are those who’d been divorced for years yet are still married in their hearts. There are those who never got married and yet energetically they are to those they once loved deeply – and unavailable to the present partner. There are those so loyal to their family they choose not to see that the family members were the source of emotional damage, will belittle or avoid seeing emotions as anything important at all. The patterns of past in present are especially evident in national identities, collectively. The wounds that never healed re-emerging as war. People will find excuses, reasons, explanations, will go far in their imagination just to keep their attention away from what is the reality spoken in their hearts. And they will see(k) fault with others.

It is never about that particular something or someone outside of us, even if we convince ourselves it is – these are only mirrors, the reflecting-backers, the feedbackers – to show us the parts of us that we had not seen before, had not acknowledged the impact our feelings had had and have on us and the course of our life. And the soul yearns to be whole so will attract exactly those people and circumstances that will help it identify the sore place that needs to be healed or the spot that requires expansion. Everyone and everything comes to us to raise awareness. If we choose to see. Yes, it takes courage to dive into reality of our hearts. It is heroic, once you’re there, not to run away and sit with whatever is being revealed to you. And yes, the journey is worth it. Unless you choose otherwise.

Ancient Scripts

I used to translate for a living once. The process is like shaping clay that has a life of its own or juggling objects that change their shape mid – air. And that when translating between languages of cultures that evolved on the same continent. Even then I would occasionally question that a phrase or a sentence could actually be translated. Today I smile when I think about all businessmen of the West convinced they understand their Asian partners on the basis of a translated document or contract.

Think Ancient Scripts: Have we ever considered how much had been lost in the translation of ancient Hebrew into Greek and then into Latin? Have we thought about the fact that certain meanings and concepts encased in the structure, flow and words of a given language simply cannot be transferred and we are left with the translator’s best choice in the framework of a given time in history?

Ancient Hebrew might be the closest to the ancient wisdom that we will ever get, what we are dealing with today is a deeply diluted version of an interpretation. Is that what the western traditions base their beliefs and practice on? And, regardless of what the atheists or non-believers think or say, their culture is also based on and shaped by, either in support or in opposition of, the latest version of the story. Do we ever evaluate what we believe in and realize that a lot of what we believe we take for a fact? What is our modern ‘culture’ a representation of, really?