Last week on a way to an event, curious as I am, I asked the taxi driver what he thought about the results of the Independence Referendum. An elderly Scot who’d lived through a lot shared his views in an uncommitted way and concluded with: “You know, some countries are able to fight for their freedom, and we quibbled over pennies”. This last sentence caught my attention and made a crack in my self-delusion. I sank deeper into the seat. Could it be that I had been projecting the great spirit of Polish fighters onto Scotland all along? Could it be that Scotland would never deliver what I see it is perfectly capable of? Absolutely. I smiled, as found a deep sense of peace in this realisation. The projection sponsored my inflated sense of possibility. It served its purpose and carried me to the place in global history where projections are no longer needed or necessary. I was ready to have the bubble burst and the taxi driver did that for me. Life brings us answers all the time if we care to listen.

The whole interaction deepened my respect for Attention as the tool of discipline and creation. In my post Touching History I shared briefly how, if we allow it, we can be guided towards transformations. Sometimes we need a specific environment to access parts of ourselves. Our inner and outer worlds are in constant dance, relationship, movement and attention is what connects these worlds. There is a saying that where attention goes the energy flows. It is one, outward aspect of attention. The inner one is ‘where  the energy is stuck, attention goes’. We will be pulled in different directions and every time we are deeply attracted to or repulsed by something it is a sign that an aspect of ourselves is waiting to be integrated. The ‘goal’ of our soul is Wholeness and it will guide us through our senses towards appropriate environment for our realisation. We will see/perceive the outer through the lens of our experience. What we perceive is pointing to what is real (behind the perceived) and the understanding that any experience is both a learning and an illusion. Only by addressing the inner can we alter the outer in  a sustainable fashion. We need to pay attention.

However, the physical reality is designed to distract us: TV, social media, games, economy. If we continually follow the attention to the outside, never inquire what it tells us about our inner world, we will always rely on the guidance of others. That’s why whenever I find myself distracted I consciously re-direct my attention to love. This is where I wish my energy to flow because this is the aspect of humanity I wish to grow. It is the greatest spiritual discipline. To be coming back to love, every time, back and again, however hard it is. Because it is not only roses and gentleness, sometimes it is radical and ‘harsh’, sometimes it slaps the cheeks of the blind or the callous, sometimes it doesn’t let me compromise or bend my standards. And it is there, in the heart, that we find the true sovereign. From that point onward we can only create empowered states of being and empowered nation states. So when I study Stalin or Hitler am I not distracted? Does not the study of conflict influence my gentle soul in a negative way?

In fact it brings me closer to Wholeness and nature of love. My work is my passion and to perform harmonisation effectively I need to understand the elements that are ‘distorted’. This includes understanding situations or people that we’ve been taught to perceive as ‘evil’. It is very easy to disregard Hitler and Stalin as monsters but they were humans, just like you and me, who decided to shape their world according to their vision. Where did they put their attention? Exactly where the financial industry puts it today. But love is all inclusive, even though we like to think differently. For once the ‘thing’, phenomenon, person is understood at an appropriate depth, their nature is revealed to us. Once nature is seen, all need for judgement, opposition or categorization dissolves. What sits at the core of our nature? Please enquire within.
Related posts: Love. Apparently, 14 Sep 2014


Nature takes care of itself one way or the other. Species go extinct and new ones are created every year, these decisions take effect outside of human control and awareness. With that in mind, I have low regard for humans in their current state of affairs. Depth of their ignorance and arrogance keeps surprising me anew every day. Yet I cannot deny that, due to the way we are constructed, we can play a significant role in the evolution of our species (at this stage preservation is no longer a possibility). By, as mentioned in my previous post, addressing our karmic entanglements.

Karma is said to be or be similar to the law of cause and effect. And while some of us pay attention to create good karma, it still keeps us entangled. What’s more it is not always the causes we are aware of that reap the results in ‘our’ lives. These causes reach far beyond our existence. Yet we are the channels through which Universes and parallel realities can come to balance. Everything we do continues the entanglement. The moment we become aware of the motive we give our Spirit a chance for freedom

For it is not necessarily the action itself that contributes to the repetition of the karmic cycle but the sponsoring thought, intentions and emotion that underlie and fuel it. Karma is created by choices we do and don’t make. It is the manifestation of the Whole of us, the feelings and emotions we are aware of and those which are repressed, denied and still awaiting healing. It is the expression of or reaping both the Beauty of our Soul and Its shadow. When what is manifested (or expressed) disturbs us it is the moment to become mindful. It is the karmic pattern coming to the Light of our awareness to be understood and integrated. The ‘disturbance’ is the Soul asking for our Attention, a gateway through which It is freed of the particular pattern or cycle.

The collective karmic cycle has turned again and is visible in all the global conflicts. The world faces a unique chance for redemption. But it is currently run by ‘automats’, people who are not present or mindful of their own actions let alone their motives. It is now up to every one of us to remain congruent in everything we think, speak and do, to act from a place of the transcended Heart.

Past in Present

After years of exploring human psyche, spirit and nature it is still fascinating for me to observe how many of us have parts of ourSelves left in different spaces, different times. Locked in the past experience, relationship, feeling we repeat the patterns those experiences left in our energy field again and again, seemingly unable to see or move beyond the boundaries set by these patterns.

It is widely taught that to change our reality we need to look into our subconscious, correct our mental attitude, improve our intellectual discipline and it is true to a certain degree. True transformation of reality however comes from acknowledging what is pre-sent in our hearts, how it feels and where it belongs. For the soul is always searching for the circumstances that will let it become whole again and this is done when we become aware of the parts that are not present, that are locked in a different time/space dimension.

There are those who’d been divorced for years yet are still married in their hearts. There are those who never got married and yet energetically they are to those they once loved deeply – and unavailable to the present partner. There are those so loyal to their family they choose not to see that the family members were the source of emotional damage, will belittle or avoid seeing emotions as anything important at all. The patterns of past in present are especially evident in national identities, collectively. The wounds that never healed re-emerging as war. People will find excuses, reasons, explanations, will go far in their imagination just to keep their attention away from what is the reality spoken in their hearts. And they will see(k) fault with others.

It is never about that particular something or someone outside of us, even if we convince ourselves it is – these are only mirrors, the reflecting-backers, the feedbackers – to show us the parts of us that we had not seen before, had not acknowledged the impact our feelings had had and have on us and the course of our life. And the soul yearns to be whole so will attract exactly those people and circumstances that will help it identify the sore place that needs to be healed or the spot that requires expansion. Everyone and everything comes to us to raise awareness. If we choose to see. Yes, it takes courage to dive into reality of our hearts. It is heroic, once you’re there, not to run away and sit with whatever is being revealed to you. And yes, the journey is worth it. Unless you choose otherwise.


Many spiritual traditions, as per timeframe, culture and interpretation, advocate non-attachment. Non-attachment is part of the spiritual awareness, when we are asked to distance ourselves to material possessions, sensual pleasure, and thought forms. Ideally this attitude is to foster the ability to observe and become aware of the observer, helping us to realise what we are not – thoughts, senses, material body. We are to observe but not invest in or attach any emotional energy to the observed. Effectively we are distancing ourselves from aspects of human make up that point to a wider understanding. Has somebody proved the thoughts we are thinking are ‘ours’?

To the careless or the over-zealous non-attachment might become a trap leading to isolation or an excuse not to engage with what hurts and heal. Many of us come from troubled childhood where the primary attachment had never been formed, is it to our benefit and health to detach from Life even further? Detached we cannot be fully present to ourselves let alone to another. I observe that in many ‘spiritually’ inclined people or even whole communities – their spiritual practices are a very mind and goal oriented activity. Thinking they are transcending the mind they bypass, often painful, truths of the heart, unaware this is the only gate to Grace, the source of true illumination.

For not all desires are wants. Some desires are born (or rather have always been alive), at the centre of our heart. Whether we know it or not, whether we like it or not, they shape our life. They burn and will forever ask our attention. These desires will ask us to surrender everything we have ever known about ourselves, the world, others. They will challenge everything we ‘know’ about non-attachment, until we become dedication, wholly in service of what’s beyond our imagination yet present as a seed in our hearts.